When I compare what I am doing now to my life before coming to Kṛṣṇa consciousness, I feel so grateful to Śrīla Prabhupāda for having saved me from such a wretched condition. At the same time, I greatly fear falling back into the nonsense and meaninglessness of a life not centered upon Kṛṣṇa. Like everyone else in the material world, I was quite miserable in materialistic life. But other devotees have had even rougher this-life experiences. I am simply amazed by the power of Māyā. First she kicks devotees so nastily that they have no other recourse than to take shelter at Śrīla Prabhupāda’s lotus feet, then she negotiates a settlement with them by which they again come into her clutches. Such compromise means to leave abhaya-caraṇa and again enter the world of fear. Śrīla Prabhupāda, please give me the intelligence to never leave your fearlessness-awarding lotus feet.
Your statements expressing your surrender to your spiritual master is proper. If this principle is followed you will remain pure and always protected by Krsna. Always follow my instructions and my example. This should be your life and soul. (Letter, 1 October 1974)
Śrīla Prabhupāda, the materialists say that to be a success one has to believe in himself. But in material life no one is a success; everyone is a failure, smashed and dumped by the laws of nature. I cannot believe in myself, either for material or spiritual well-being, because I am useless both materially and spiritually. But Ibelieve in you, Śrīla Prabhupāda. You are a success because you are beyond the laws of nature. Whoever sticks to your lotus feet succeeds in escaping birth and death. Not only that, but if anyone becomes attached to those who are attached to you, he also becomes a success.
Śrīla Prabhupāda, I pray to be able to stick to your lotus feet, not only throughout this life, but life after life—and that I not simply stick there uselessly, but that I do something valuable to serve them.